I pray Philippians 4:6-9 over you. I see the insecurities, worries, anxiety, and fear that sometimes lead your actions. In response, you lash out to make others feel small...like you do. I see those actions, but hear "I have to prove my worth, because I don't believe I have any."
But, you don't have to prove anything to anyone. You earned your spot and it does not matter if you are shut out and not recognized. God says you are enough, so you are. Man has no input in this matter.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation,
by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
God will fight for you. God says you are worthy. I pray that you feel peace come over you as you give over your anxiety to the Lord. Lay your fears at His feet and walk away knowing He will take care of it.
You don't have to earn respect any longer. You don't have to fight for your place any longer. What will happen will happen - all He asks is that we do our best to the glory of Him.
And, that is what you are doing right now.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble,
whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable
—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me,
or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
I pray God's strength over you. I pray you see you like He sees you - His beautiful child. You need no adjustments to be so. I pray you focus on the lovely things in your world. See the great blessings and favor God has bestowed on you. Concentrate on the positive things so much so that there is no room left for the negative to creep into your mind.
I want happiness for you and I pray God show you how to attain and maintain that happiness. I pray a spirit of "I don't sweat it" come over you. And, as a result, true peace will come to you and will manifest spiritually, emotionally, and physically.